So it’s a Saturday I was thinking “bae” would of texted me asking to go see him but… It was getting late & this guy who was kinda cute… Never really talked to before asked me to go to a Drive inn movie… I was like fck it! Why not!? I didn’t think C was gunna text me so I went! It was pretty chill at first he seamed pretty cool & stuff. Then he’s like truth or dare!? I was just like… Wtf!? But I went along with it! He dared me to take my shirt of & then dared me to make out with him in the back seat… Lol! I was like okay… By this time C texted me & was like… I want to see you! I was like… Me too! Continuing with that other kid! He literally sticks his hand up my shirt & pulls it up! Kissing me everywhere! My stomach, boobs, inner thigh, & neck! He wanted it BAD! then he takes his pants off, asked me to give a BJ, hand job or a least lick it!? I was like no! The he asked if he could eat me out, finger me, or a least take my shirt off. I also said no!! Then he asked if I could at least touch his dick… So I did. Cause I felt bad. He literally kept asking & asking! I just kept saying no! I just met this kid & I’m not that kind if girl! We kinda continued to make out but after that I was done! I’ve been wanting to be done! So we left. Took me home & gave me a goodnight kiss. Ugh I felt so disgusted with myself! I rather if went & gone C then to of spent my night with that douch bag!
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This is the longest I’ve gone without talking to him since we’ve started talking… But I think I’m legit done. He hasn’t texted me. Or anything. This honestly sick so much! I’ve never been this upset about a boy. I can’t believe I let him get to me the way that I have. It’s just all the things he said. Legit made me believe that he liked me. It’s crazy how things have changed from a mouth ago. & I want is go them to go back. Cause I was honestly so happy! Like even though he had his shitty times. He also had so many good ones. & I feel like it had just started to get good. I honestly feel like he’ll want to come back to me. He’ll realized that he fucked up. But his new girl’s a THOT so whatever. Basic.
I was supposed go over & “bae” tonight!? Right I was going over there! I told him to let me know when he wanted me to go! & we were texting & stuff then I was the last one to reply… Never texted me. If he didn’t want me to visit him. He could of just said so. Like I’m so over him & his BS. It’s been literally a week since he’s been like this & I’ve had enough. It’s annoying & I’m wasting my time! I just need to call him & ask him what’s up cause if he wants out I want out!!! Fuck this! I knew all along that it was a bad idea. But it was literally going so good & idk what happened.
So… I’m laying here. Been waiting all day for a text message. It’s midnight. & honestly if it wasn’t for that. Today would of been perfect. Like… Idk. It’s upsetting because. I think he’s losing interest in me. I really honestly thought that this could of been something. Like legit. Had hope that it could of led into a relationship. & it maybe still could. But I just feel like he doesn’t like me anymore. Or as much as he used to. Cause i know he did really like me. & like it’s really crazy how I never in a million years thought he’d even be remotely interested in me. But like I’ve said before… It was fun while it lasted. We’ll see how it goes. I’m sure I’m overthinking things. But I just want to know what he wants.
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