Dear diary...
That gets to me…

Since he’s not talking to me… Who is he talking to? Who was I replaced with? Does he say the same things he said to me??? Ugh… That’s really what makes me upset. It sucks. But it’s all in gods plan. If it wasn’t meant to be it wasn’t meant to be. And that’s what makes me feel better…

No we never dated… But it was probably the closest thing I’ve gotten to a relationship. Whatever it was… It was fun. & I enjoyed every minute of it.

Back home homecoming

Last weekend went back home for homecoming… I couldn’t wait to see everyone! Especially bae… I made sure I looked BOMB AF that day! I couldn’t afford to look bad! First off I met with some of my guy friends & eat out with them… Bae came along! That was kind of awkward… But not too bad! Then it was game time & I hung out with my friends & bae & I talked very little… It got to then of the game… Him & I took a picture together & he kept coming up to me & touching me & idk what he was trying to do but I didnt know how to react! I wish I would of gone along with it & have it more attention! End of the night we all met at his house & he was on his phone the whole night! So we left… I felt guilty & I had herd he was leaving the next day so I had to talk to him! I called him! But he didn’t want to cause he was tired… I was so upset! Next day we texted all day but I didn’t see him till night time! & it wasn’t planned… Didn’t even get to talk to him! It was so long since I had scene him I didn’t know what to say! I didn’t know whether to go up to him & hug him or to pretend like nothing happened! It was awful! I wanted some one on one! But he’s just not a one on one type of guy I guess! We still talk & he calls me babe & stuff but idk… IDK when I’ll see him again idk if we’re talking or just friends! I’m confused!! But everything’s seams pretty normal so I’m pretty happy! But I want to keep trying because he’s like a mystery that I really want to unfold & I’m still unraveling it!

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Drive inn movie…

So it’s a Saturday I was thinking “bae” would of texted me asking to go see him but… It was getting late & this guy who was kinda cute… Never really talked to before asked me to go to a Drive inn movie… I was like fck it! Why not!? I didn’t think C was gunna text me so I went! It was pretty chill at first he seamed pretty cool & stuff. Then he’s like truth or dare!? I was just like… Wtf!? But I went along with it! He dared me to take my shirt of & then dared me to make out with him in the back seat… Lol! I was like okay… By this time C texted me & was like… I want to see you! I was like… Me too! Continuing with that other kid! He literally sticks his hand up my shirt & pulls it up! Kissing me everywhere! My stomach, boobs, inner thigh, & neck! He wanted it BAD! then he takes his pants off, asked me to give a BJ, hand job or a least lick it!? I was like no! The he asked if he could eat me out, finger me, or a least take my shirt off. I also said no!! Then he asked if I could at least touch his dick… So I did. Cause I felt bad. He literally kept asking & asking! I just kept saying no! I just met this kid & I’m not that kind if girl! We kinda continued to make out but after that I was done! I’ve been wanting to be done! So we left. Took me home & gave me a goodnight kiss. Ugh I felt so disgusted with myself! I rather if went & gone C then to of spent my night with that douch bag!

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This is the longest I’ve gone without talking to him since we’ve started talking… But I think I’m legit done. He hasn’t texted me. Or anything. This honestly sick so much! I’ve never been this upset about a boy. I can’t believe I let him get to me the way that I have. It’s just all the things he said. Legit made me believe that he liked me. It’s crazy how things have changed from a mouth ago. & I want is go them to go back. Cause I was honestly so happy! Like even though he had his shitty times. He also had so many good ones. & I feel like it had just started to get good. I honestly feel like he’ll want to come back to me. He’ll realized that he fucked up. But his new girl’s a THOT so whatever. Basic.